"No. I feel like a bigger monster than I ever suspected you of being. I mean what I just said and you're never going to believe a word of it because you know what I bastard I'm capable of being. I didn't mean to hurt you. I won't irritate you by laying out my reasoning; I'm sure you have a good idea of that. The flirtation startled me and I panicked. After that, I didn't know how to put an end to things and there was no one I could talk to. It escalated and I let it. So, yeah, I have to say that I'm sorry because I am, on a lot of different levels. But, no, that doesn't make me feel any better because what I did... It's like this nightmare is making me less human."
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Date: 2009-07-03 09:39 pm (UTC)